The begining of my journey

This is it. This is the beginning to my weight loss journey. Well, sort of the beginning. I've been battling my weight since I was about 11 years old.
That's when I first realized I was overweight. I wasn't always, but that puberty, it is an evil bitch.
I used to be cute, I was in beauty pageants as a kid.
Anway, I've been fat for quite some time, that's the point I was trying to make.

So, last year my husband and I bought a house. I could barely help move boxes and get up and down the stairs without major downtime afterword to recuperate. This is when I realized I had to make a change or this new amazing house would be my new amazing coffin. That's a very scary thought - especially since I have 3 children who depend on me. They need me to be healthy - they need me to be around. My oldest child has autism so he may need me for a lot longer than the other two.

I went to a bariatric surgery seminar last July. I learned that my insurance required me to jump through some major hoops before they would approve this surgery. The roux-en-y surgery is what I'm attempting to have done. My insurance required 6 months of a physician supervised diet, daily food and exercise logs, an appointment with a dietitian, a psychological evaluation, a drug and alcohol test, a nicotine test (and I had smoked for 20 years - ugh), I had to make an online patient profile and none of this was easy.

Earlier this week, Tuesday in fact... I finally finished all the requirements. It took 8 months to finish everything needed. Now I wait. This wait for the insurance approval or denial has only been a few days so far and seems like years. I decided to make this blog to help me get through the next few days, weeks, or months until I get my answer. Plus, this is a great way to look back on this whole journey and see how far I've come.

Whether I get approved for this surgery or not - this journey is not over. I will continue to eat better, to move more - to lose weight. This is my mission. I will be healthy, I will live longer, I will have a better quality of life. And this blog will motivate me and remind me of how far I have come.

Since last July (2016) I have already lost 30 lbs without the surgery. I can do this. I will do this.

This is my journey.